Im backkkk

I guess I'm charged guilty for not blogging for a month or maybe its been more than a months. Will you forgive me? I've got no excuses left, so I might as well just admit that I had no passion to write or share anything whatsoever this past month. I've been getting so so so many emails from my friends in Indonesia, which is really, very sweet. Emails of encouragement and support, some only said hi, and some ask a bunch of silly questions, not forgetting that they all kept on asking me “when I'm going back to Indo”. All I can say to you guys is I surely missed you all a loads but for now I just wanted to say thank you all for still having me in your thoughts, but too bad this year is still not the year that I will go back yet to Indo....:( I know, i know that I’ve been telling most of the people that I will be back this year… but plan had changed .. ehmm as prolly most of you already know, I still have to pursue my bachelor degree in here. .. Moreover, I found someone that I love too here (isn't it great...:) )… I thought that maybe I would find my future career in here too… who knows right…? eventhough the opportunity is small to have a job here for me cause i have no working permit, green card, etc... but I'll never know,especially I know that God already made a plan on what I have to do in the future...So I guess since I’d given this opportunity to pursue my ed here, why wouldn't I try to do it?I will do the best I could so that I could accomplished it n have a better future.

Anyway, I wouldnt talk a loadsss about myself.... but two weeks ago, I had this heart-to-heart conversation with my classmate.

Well, actually she told me some stuff, so I wouldn't considered it as a heart to heart converstaion,,, or maybe it is.. well whatever! After all, what I did was listening to her conversation.

Anyway, she liked this guy in her office. A few years older than her and way more accomplished : middle level associate position, very classy attitude. According to her, he's the kind of guy you'd love to bring home to your family, the kind you wanna settle down with. For this story's purpose, let's call him Mr. Scoobydoo bydoo.

Her crush on him was so huge, it's practically all she talked about. I go out with her for lunch almost every day after the class that we took together and there's always a moment that we talk about him.

Until today, that is.

I asked her casually how he's doing and she said whatever. So of course I know something's up. She then proceeded to tell me that she doesn't like him anymore and she finds him annoyingly dull. How so, right? That girl have told me in details how she wanted their honeymoon to be. I mean, girlie, what happen to making babies on a fancy yacht in the Southern France? Too much info, by the way.

She stated that Mr. Scooby doo bydoo is too much work. He's very self absorbed because he knows that he's in demand. He acts like guys in The Bachelor. He's not down to earth at all, too fancy, and she just saw him asking the blackberry pin of another intern in their office who also hangs out with her from time to time.

Ahhhh, so that's the problem.

I gotta admit I used to do that back in my young age if i like a guy (doesnt mean that im old now.. but I always think that im not young anymore, especially that im over the 20th of age). I like a guy, a lot of my days spent obsessing over him and what he likes, being a real girly girl who always wants to look pretty in front of him and as soon as I find him giving attention to another girl, I stop liking him. Hell, I might dislike him instantly just like that. In a snap. Boom, you're ugly, I hate you.

In a way, it's so high school. Him talking to another girl and asking for her number or blackberry pin or whatever does not always mean he's hitting on her, right? I can see how it may look like it but any single person can mingle with anyone he or she wants.

So why do we do this? Is it just because it's easier to cross their names off our list rather than accepting the fact that they're more interested in other people? I've been in that situation and it's a pretty unpleasant feeling to not have our crush seem to be interested in getting to know us more. After all, asking for someone's contact details mean they want to keep in touch, right?

I don't know, maybe I'm over analyzing. But I KNOW WHERE SHE'S COMING FROM. Call me shallow but I'm also THAT girl who stopped liking a guy and wanted him out of my face if he didn't look like he would chase me back.

hioohohoohoho...

But anyway good knowing that i have boyfriend now.. so this kind of situation wouldnt happen to me no more... woot wootz..!